The Fruitful Findings of a Wandering Mind

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neevripp — Fri, 18 Feb 2011 03:24:59 +0000

sorry guys, i guess my wandering mind hasn’t been too fruitful lately as i haven’t been on here in oh let’s see… 6 months! well, i lied to you about having more time to do stuff like this now that i graduated from high school. boy was i wrong! my life has only gotten busier. but as for the last post i made about not “deserving this”… whatever i didn’t deserve, has gotten better & i’ve been very happy for last couple months. i’ve been going to college part time & working full time. but now that i’m getting back on it. i will try to post more on here.

Sincerely yours. <3

Ditto!

neevripp — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 01:28:59 +0000

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That’s how i feel right now…

Guess Who’s Back!!

neevripp — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 19:28:53 +0000

Wow, so its been a while since i’ve been on here. towards the end of school there i started to become quite the busy little gal… glad that’s over with and now that i’ve GRADUATED i have a lot more free time… for stuff like this!

so to catch up: i came across this e-mail which i thought i should share with the world! its basically a list of advice.

1.) Give people more than they expect & do it cheerfully.
2.) Marry a man or woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
3.) Don’t believe all you hear, don’t spend all you have, or sleep all you want.
4.) When you say, “I love you,” mean it.
5.) When you say, “I’m sorry,” look the person in the eye.
6.) Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
7.) Believe in love at first sight.
8.) Never laugh at anyone’s dream. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much.
9.) Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely.
10.) In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
11.) Don’t judge people by their relatives.
12.) Talk slowly but think quickly.
13.) When someone asks you a question you don’t want to answer, smile and ask, “Why do you want to know?”
14.) Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
15.) When you lose, don’t lose the lesson!
16.) Remember the three R’s: Respect for self, Respect for others, and Responsibility for all your actions.
17.) Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
18.) When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
19.) Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
20.) Spend some time alone.

The Power of Words

neevripp — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 06:19:02 +0000

Beauty, Harmony, Pain, Love, Peace, Hate, Determination, Pride, Forgiveness, Strength, Redemption, Destiny, Hope, Eternity, Courage, Fate, Luck, Truth, Sadness, Hostility, Power, Royalty, Happiness, Confusion, Faith, Serenity, Confidence, Longevity, Dependence, Grace, Wisdom, Honor, Tranquility, Fortune, Gratitude, Abundance, Wealth, Joy, Fertility, Glory, Victory, Accomplishment, Disappointment, Loyalty, Curiosity, Advisory, Sorrow, Passion, Intensity, Exuberance, Shame, Hopelessness, Fear, Loathing, Lust, Desire, Fragility, Rebellion, Prosperity, Insecurity, Responsibility, Respect, Jealousy, Greed, Generosity, Grief, Unity, Acceptance, Integrity, Selflessness, Devotion, Clarity, Independence, Loneliness, Knowledge, Motivation, Opportunity, Preservance, Purity, Virtue, Inaguration, Courtesy…

Antidisestablismentarianism

neevripp — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 00:25:29 +0000

I’d really like to have a psychiatrist analyze me: just to see what they would come up with. I really think that i don’t have any depression in me at all. Sure, at times i feel sad, really, really sad, but i still feel happy about other things. I don’t mourn and weep for an eternity, i look at the bright side of life. I feel that this is my greatest gift. I’m nearly always happy, even when i’m not, ha. I think about a lot of deep stuff and i feel that in m mind, i can never get bored, its like that is my “happy place” where nothing ever goes wrong and i think that that is why i feel the way i do. So, i’m curious to know how a psychiatrist/psychologist would interpret my feelings and behavior.

“A Diamond in the Rough”

neevripp — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 03:51:37 +0000

I’m gonna start to post some pictures of my art pieces. Here is my first studio work from this year:

This is my Still Life. “A Diamond in the Rough”

My dad is a big golfer so i kind of made it for him. It’s done with a charcoal pencil.

When I Grow Up…

neevripp — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 06:05:13 +0000

From my journal. Written June 25, 2009

Truthfully, i’m just trying to find out who i am. That’s what all this is. I thought i knew who i was, but lately I realized that’s not the case. It’s just a phase, and i hope you understand i’m not doing this to hurt you or deliberately disobey you. I just want independence, i just want to be my own person. I’m smart and i have good intentions, i’m responsible, and i make wise decisions. I’m a big girl, i can take care of myself, and i know what’s right for ME. Really, that’s all that matters, i have to make myself happy vefore i can please anyone else. I just need space for myself to grow, to succeed… I know you guys are just doing your job as parents and i respect that, i readlly do, but i feel like i’m being held back from experiencing my life. i AM ready to take on the real world, i really feel like i am and i just want that indpendence to be able to make my won final decisions and do as i please. It’s no like i’m a bad person; breaking the law and all that, i’m just living MY life. I thaank you for everything you guys have done, you raised me well. And you are the reason i am the good person i am today. I’ve seen a lot in my young age and i’ve learned from it, and it’s made me mature from the get go. You guys think the worst of me, and i just want to let you know it’s definitely not like that. Please don’t take away my indpendence, that’s all i ask for at this point. I get good grades and i try hard in school because i know that in the long run that is what will lead me on the right path to success, see i DO have good intentions. What else do i have to do to prove to you that i’m not a “bad” person. No, i’m not going to be the “perfect” child, even though you thought i was, it doesn’t exist. What i do, i do for my own good, and that is all. I’m sorry for anything i may have put you through, but right now i just need time. i”ll be okay, don’t worry about that. I’ll keep in touch. I love you guys. Bye, for now.

This was a letter i wrote to my parents, with no intention of acutally giving it to them, just getting things off my chest, the day before i ran away. I came back four days later, and now things are better at home. I still don’t have ALL the independence i’d like, but they’ve definitely laid off, so that is good. I’ll be 18 in 2 months so hopefully i will get what i want.

♥ Anonymous

neevripp — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 21:47:13 +0000

Today i was inspired, as i am everyday, but this is something i find special and something i will fulfill. When i get older and am making money, i am going to send out a hundred dollar bill every couple months, anonymously. Along with this bill i will include a letter that will say the same thing everytime. The letter will read:

This is my gift to you. I want you to take this bill and do as you wish; pay the bills, take your loved one to dinner, or treat yourself, because you deserve it. On one condition: you better your life by doing something generous for someone you don’t know, just as i did.
-♥ Anonymous

It’s almost like “paying it forward.” I will deposit the hundred dollar bill and the letter in a mail box at random. I am looking forward to this feeling of gratitude.

Grrrrl Power!

neevripp — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 22:56:22 +0000

Last night i was reading post secrets and i saw a post that said, “i blame the feminist movements for my unhappiness” and i automatically figured it was posted by a man. The past year of my life, i have discovered a lot about myself and think i have established who i really am. I have noticed how much of a feminist i CAN be, however i am not anti-man, so i wouldn’t necessarily call myself a feminist. I think people underestimate women way way too much. I think there’s a lot more women that have more abilities, more power, more authority, and more strength in a psychological sense than some men. I find myself being underestimated quite often as well. People think because i’m skinny, caucasian, short, (strawberry) blonde, and FEMALE, then that means i don’t know anything and that i can’t stand up for myself. WRONG. Just because i’m small, doesn’t mean i’m weak. Just because i’m blonde, doesn’t mean i’m dumb, i’m actually pretty intelligent. I’m not afraid to speak my mind and stand up for myself, to anyone. It makes me feel disrespected, like i’m not good enough. If someone says something to me like, “you couldn’t handle that,” or “you’re not down” (haha) then i will go off on them and i WILL prove them wrong and show them that i can do whatever is they’re telling me i can’t.

Past, Present, Future

neevripp — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 07:14:42 +0000

Lately, i’ve noticed a lot of people get stressed out over the smallest things, even something that’s just all in good fun. I don’t know what it is about me, i must just be a really laid back person and just kind of go with the flow. I just feel that life is something that should be enjoyed, no matter what the outcome, you must make the best of everything that may happen. I find good in everything, even if it’s the wrst thing that could ever happen, i will be able to find something good to come of it, i guess that’s just my optomistic nature. I can’t stand pessimists. If they didn’t always think so negatively i bet you ten dollars they would be a lot happier about they’re lives and everything in it. So think positive! It really will help keep you sane. Another thing i’ve noticed is how much i live in the moment. I never really think about the future or how my actions with affect my future, but back to my optomism, i know that whatever decision i make, it will be a good one, no matter what happens, i will get myself out of any bad situation one way or another and get myself back on my feet. The last thing i wanted to talk about tonight is open-mindedness. I think that if everyone was open-minded, to everything; the world would be a much more peaceful place because there wouldn’t be anything to look down on, or to hate, or discriminate. I find myself as a VERY open-minded person. I’m open to everything and very accepting of everything and everyone. I’m also very open to trying new things and i believe that MOST (keyword, ha) things must be tried at least once, life is so short and everyone likes new experiences, right?